I've been fighting off intrusive thoughts these past few years. idk if that's the right term for it, but my unconscious outbursts have been everything from "i'm gonna get myself committed soon" to "i will repay everyone i can, just need my life turned around." Not sure if this is a safe place to vent, but i figured now's as good a time to try improving.

Don't know if a regularly scheduled creative process involving my OCs fending off everyday conflicts while trying to earn enough for rent/bills would suffice in covering my own irl issues. job hunting in rural heartland during election year and an endless pandemonium of pestilence. Really wanna try a gamemaker/rpgmaker project. Nothing major, just enough to prove my capability in development and design. Upcoming comic made ongoing, musical covers and potential training arc. Might try my hand at sketching something more mature rated for a change. Never crossed that artist's threshold before.

THERE HAS BEEN GOOD. Last weekend, went to Sabaton and Judas Priest with friends. Won a jackpot, on top of what I've saved up last summer. Preordered Balatro, having a ball with that. Made 100+ more subs on youtube. Had two interviews. Drinking water and eating 3 meals a day. Sleeping better. Staying clean. Socializing more.

Thank you for your time if you've read this. Let's make this life a wonderful adventure!